just enough to know..

I had a Black Day..

2007-11-12T15:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it takes a little more to spark up your life and wake you up from a monotonous living dream...of going to school and coming home after that.. everyday... i should know.. it makes one appreciate life a little more....

the feeling of fear and unreal coiled and collided together... not knowing whether it was a dream or not.. when my car swerved out of control... i couldn't control it.. i grabbed the steering tightly trying to make it go straight again.. but the wheels seemed to be possessed with its own thoughts and swerved left and right down the slope from Mid Valley Mega Mall heading to Bangsar... all i could think about at the moment was not hitting the high railing on my left and i turned my steering as hard as i could to the right.. luck was on my side and the spirit left my wheels alone to obey me and with a loud thump.. i hit the rather high divider and landed 90 degrees off the initial direction... my car was hanging in between the divider and there was no way i could reverse or move my car.. i was stunned for a second or two... i realised then that it was not a dream... i am in an accident.. i thank God for not involving anyone else.. and not being hurt myself...

trying hard not to panic and to control my emotions, i called my mum and AAM insurance for help... after awhile, a few men stopped their cars nearby and approached me.. one of them showed genuine interest to help me while others just wanted to sell me their insurance...

trapped in my own insecurities and uncertainties about these men.. i saw Ken walking towards me.. it was the biggest relief of my life... i couldn't control my emotions any longer and hugged him staining his shirt with my tears.. he was really nice... he was only a few cars behind me when he saw the incident and turned back to help me.... my dizziness slowly seeped away as i know that at least, i am not alone..

by that time, a policeman had appeared ready to issue me with a summon.. but fortunately or unfortunately, another accident even more severe than mine occurred... two cars.. i don't know how, just like me swerved uncontrollably... (the police forgot about me after that)

one of them like me, hit the curb but ran over it ending up on the other side of the road meters away from me... it swerved towards my direction.. all i could think of then was " sheets.. why am i standing here on the divider??? i could die!"

luckily there were not many cars on the other side.. preventing further accidents.. however, the other car involved was not so lucky.. it hit the railing and the entire front was smashed....

i expected some screams at my direction and i had mentally prepared myself for any terrible ordeals.. because i kinda induced their accident... but the other victims were very nice to me.. they told me that it was not my fault and that they had seen my misfortune from a distance but.. unfortunately.. they ended up with my fate as well...

it took 3 strong men to help carry my car while Ken sat in my car and helped me reverse it back onto the road.. the exterior of my car was alright.. but.. i found out later that my car had been badly damaged below...

one of the victims, a woman was very very helpful and protected me from fiendish insurance sales people who tried to manipulate and take advantage of me.. it was like this. i called AAM and told them about the incident. they dispatched a tow truck estimated to reach about an hours time.. a man later came.. claiming to be from AAM and made me sign a form so that my car would be towed to his workshop.. i was still blur from shock.. i read it.. it contained no unreasonable clause and i signed it believing the fact that he was from AAM insurance.

later however, my uncle called me and asked me not to sign anything whatsoever.. but it was already too late... the genuine AAM tow truck did come.. ( the man who approached me previously was indeed an agent for AAM.. there was no scam) but i tried to revoke the contract anyway when he refused to tow it to the workshop of my choice.. he had also told me that he would help me make a report to the police... the woman defended me and told me that i did not have to report because my accident did not involve anyone else.. and she told me to drive off a.s.a.p but my car was in no position to move..
i had a hard time negotiating with them to revoke it.. all they wanted was money.. but since there was no clause stating that i cannot revoke the contract.. and after giving them duit kopi.. they dropped it.. and received my RM 20 as a settlement.. the reason for this was that.. the workshops under such insurance companies usually overcharge and they will " kill you" (in Cantonese) and you have no idea whether or not the workshop is truly reliable... the kind woman i mentioned earlier helped me with the negotiations as well.. demanding a revocation of the agreement..

after a traumatically long and tiring ordeal, everything was settled.....
it was one of the most terrifying things that had happened in my life...
until know.. i have no idea how it happened.. everything was but a fluffy white blur..
it was not at a curve, and the road was not wet or slippery... i just did what i usually do..

i called my mum after school... and found out that i was not the only one who was having a big black day.. my mother's day wasn't very much gayer... after hearing my horrible news, her BMW had a flat tyre after sending my sister to school.. and she could not drive her Volvo because it was emitted to the workshop just that morning due to some leakage thingy...

its a Black day for my family... i should start praying... seriously...
but i am glad that my car is still in one piece.. and not broken into many pieces beyond recognition......

i am still a little shaken from the accident.. but that will not stop me from driving.... fast..

if i learned a lesson today.. it would probably be STOP SPEEDING.. but since i don't really think that i did anything out of my ordinary..
it would be

DO NOT CALL AAM AFTER AN ACCIDENT

but YOUR OWN RELIABLE MECHANIC!

and

DO NOT SIGN ANY FORMS FROM RANDOM PEOPLE!

Overall, i am glad that Ken was there.. without him.. i would have... i dunno....
and besides, it pumped my blog back to life.. and that's hard!

thanks Ken!! i owe you one!! ^^

and i am really glad that my uncle came all the way and helped me with the rest of my car problems... thank yoouuuuuuu........................

WARNING to those who wants to go to HELP !

2007-09-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

HELP INSTITUTE...

what can i say about it??

firstly, the Ground Floor.. the entrance to Wisma Help which somehow smells like toilet despite the presence of one.. is just sick.. especially if you have just eaten.. LOL!

Next, the Library! its rather pathetic.. less than half a floor.. with outdated books and hardly enough tables and chairs for the students... despite the poor condition.. and the inability to purchase newer books.. the library is .. umm.. lets just say that.. you'll be transported back into your childhood days when library cards were essential.. however.. in HELP, you dont even get plastic library cards.. you get 3 pink manila card thingies which are too big to fit into your wallet.. you have to apply to get the manila card thingies.. and it takes one whole day to process because it has to be verified by the HEAD first.. o.0 not like there is anything worth that much in the library.. the LAW BOOKS are OUTDATED.. so.. its pretty much useless.. ( i didnt bother applying for them )

the strange thing is that you cant use your student card to apply for the library pockets as they so proudly call it.. you have you use your uni fee receipt to apply for the pink thing.. then what in the world is the student card for??? sheesh..

lol.. i know what its for.. its for showing who we really are... orange skinned people from some orange planet.. (ask to see my student card.. and you'll understand)

the computer lab in Wisma Help.. is a tiny tiny room.. with really old computers.. the library in Taylors College Subang Jaya (TCSJ) has more computers in its library than HELP has in its lab!

in order to use the computers, once again.. you cant use your student card.. you have to activate it first at the main block.. and you have to pay like.. i cant remember how much a month in order to use the computers..

and the parking is a nightmare.. you'll need to purchase these booklets of coupons in which you can park in the car park for 3 bucks a day.. its always sold out.. and you'll have to go around begging for some kind soul to sell you some when you run out of it.. because.. you'll probably go broke if you don't have them.. its probably like 3 bucks for the first 2 hours then.. 1.5 bucks every subsequent hour or something like that..

well.. it'll be nice if they can at least tell you when they will have the stock for the coupons.. but they cant .. because they dont know themselves.. so.. you'll have to go everyday to check in the Bursary to see if the annoying white paper which tells you that the parking coupon is sold out is there or not.. if its not there... BUY AS MUCH AS YOU CAN!!

the photostat shop nearby Wisma Help.. " The Illegal Shop".. as we call it.. is hidden in a little corner.. well.. its not really a shop.. but more of.. a space... in between a locked door containing some chemical thingy.. and the gray metal sliding up and down door thingies on shops

there is a warning sign if you look in.. something which tells you put on proper safety breathing gear when you enter the premises... lol..
i had a terrible headache the last time i was there.. it was very hard to breathe and i felt like puking while waiting for the woman to get my photostatting done..

my first week there was sad... really sad... the condition of the place.. the lack of healthy food.. the massive traffic in the mornings.. some of us really wanted to run back to TCSJ!! or Inti Nilai.. LOL!

However,.. im getting used to it now.. im used to the toilet smelling ground floor.. the annoying bus rides from the main campus to Wisma Help, the tiny table and chair thingies which reminds you of a baby chair, during tutorials.. and the frequent consumption of mamak at Ali Maju...........

Maybe.. just maybe ..with time.. i may learn to like this dumpy place...

NOT!

MY ADDICTION

2007-08-25T14:10:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE get addicted to drugs, caffeine, chocolate or cigarettes..

but the moment i signed up on http://www.facebook.com/ i knew that i had found my addiction...

this strong memorising effect has captured me and had managed to lure me into its sticky web.. in which lies many already trapped souls which would now be joined by one more... mine...

this strong spell which had me so entangled in its existence had managed to break me free from my previous addiction of Ragnarok Online.. i don't know how this tiny website works exactly but.. its powers are exceedingly strong.. i am so afraid of it.. afraid that it will suck up all of my soul leaving me with but an empty shell... wandering around the world... with a blank expression plastered on my face.. like the many zombies u see in those old classic horror films...

honestly.. i have no idea why i am writing about my addiction.. maybe its because .. people have to know.. they have to.. you have to.. because.. if anything happens to me.. if you suddenly see me spread.. my limbs in weird angles.. in a pool of my own crimson blood.. on the newly laid brick floor in front of Taylors College Subang Jaya.. you will know why...

[ picture removed for being too gruesome]

at least my death can be explained... you can explain it for me... for i will leave no note and perhaps it may be spontaneous.. a sudden urge to take my own life..

so help me...

and help yourself.. listen to me when i warn you now... do not register into facebook .. or.. you'll end up with a fate as hideous like mine..

* disclaimer: any familiar websites written on this post is merely a strange coincidence that cannot be explained by science.. i hold no responsibility whatsoever to any effects this post may or may not cause to anyone living or dead. *

2007-08-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since anything worth writing has happened in my life... not like there is anything exciting happening now or anything...

i was gonna rant and be a little emo about my A2 results which had just chosen the perfect time to come and ruin whats left of my holidays.. but i am gonna spare anyone who cares enough to read my blog the gruesome and tiresome details...

though i do hope that somehow this could happen... but if only the information could actually stick in my brain instead of killing me... lolz

then i also wanted to write about my overall boring and meaningless holiday that seem to last forever.. with every minute crawling slower inch by inch like a semi-paralysed snail... but right now.. when im just getting used to the holiday thingy... its ending soon... and i was just getting used to staying up late to the wee hours of the mornings, indulged in my all time favourite game.. Ragnarok Online with the Baby of PL1.. Su Cheng... hee hee...
without her.. my " few a.m s' " would be dull and meaningless...

oh well.. life is dull now..

i hope that some excitement will come along before i actually rott...

>>TAGGED<<

2007-08-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

INSTRUCTION :Bold the statements that are true to you.

Italize the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.

Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse. hehehe....recently! =p
10) I am totally smart.
11) I've broken someone's bones.
12) I am paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. Fake Eyelashes for Prom!! =p
21) I couldnt survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I am always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I dont hate anyone. at times, i wish i do.
35) I am a pretty good dancer.
36) I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I have rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I have called the cops on a friend before.
46) I am not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I am shy around members with the opposite sexs.
49) I have made a move on a friend, significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I Ãƒm obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal dream.
69) I am proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I cant live without black eyeliner.
79) I am afraid to pick up random objects on the road because they might be cursed.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I've written in.
86) I can stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I am an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

Okay...the FIVE people i tag are....

1. Benjamin sim
2. pei lin
3. su cheng
4. haow kang
5. sieu theng

My Pet Page

2007-08-03T20:15:00.000+08:00

got bored during the holidays.. and so.. decided to take pictures of my pets that i have...

PUPPY

my first dog that i own which is still alive.. she is a mongrel like SzeYin.. (dun kill me!)

she used to live in the forest on top of the hill where my house is.. and we just picked her up and brought her home... lol..

we had so many dogs before this (don't ask me what happened to the previous ones.. ) we kinda gave up naming our dogs properly... well.. she was a puppy when we got her.. and so.. we named her Puppy... >.<

EDO

after awhile.. we bought a miniture schnauzer to cure my sister's depression at that time.. so.. he belongs to her...he was about the size of my pencil box when we first got him.. but then.. he just became fat...

we are too lazy to groom him.. so his fur is longer than it is supposed to be..
he is supposed to look like this..

we were nuts about Full Metal Alchemist the anime at that time.. and so.. we decided to name him after one of the characters in that anime.. Edward Elric.. lolz... i just call him Edo-kun..

BoyBoy

ahem.. i told you about the lack of more imaginative names for my dogs.. ahem... the next dog is BoyBoy.. cause.. can you guess... he is a boy dog.. hahaha...

we didn't buy or pick him up or anything.. Puppy got raped.. sniff.. twice.. by entirely different dogs... don't ask me how.. i have no idea... and so.. she got pregnant.. and gave birth to three puppies.. 2 female and 1 male.. we gave away the other 2 and decided to keep one...i dont know why i dont have any pictures of them when they were young... but here is BoyBoy now.. all grown up..

Gumdrop

after that... i got myself a hamster... its a Pearl White Dwarf... i named her Gumdrop cause her eyes looked to me like gumdrops... but in the end.. i just call her nezumi-chan

apart from that, i also have fishes and tortoises.... well.. we didn't name any of them.... though i think that my maids have named the tortoises...

i used to have 9 Indian Stars.. but.. dunno what happened.. they died one by one.. now.. only 4 left... T.T

Mittens

i also have a cat.. it was as easy as pie to name her.. i firstly saw her outside my Vocal Lession Place and she looked really tiny and cute... and i told her.. " if you're still here when i come back, i'll take you home with me.." well.. she was there after the lesson.. and i took her home.. hahaha

i couldn't get a nicer pic of her.. cause she's very.. scary and bitchy.. she'll scratch you and bite you.. because she thinks that she is only playing.. she kinda thinks that she's a dog too... she always fights with my schauzer and wins most of the time.. and she wants to eat my hamster and my newest dog...

finally.. the newest addition to the family..

Socks

this is a recent picture.. she is about 6 months old now...she is really really tiny...

about 9-10 inches in length..

we had a tough time trying to name her.. Clinton came up with names like Tofu or Ganmo or something... and i came up with Socks and Mouse ( because she looks like one).. we finally decided on Socks.. but in the end.. we just call her Baby..

she is supposed to be a Pomeranian.. but she doesn't look like one.. dunno why.. maybe we got cheated... hahahahaha...
because.. she is supposed to look like this..

i wonder what happened to all her fur... >.<

Oh! i used to have birds too... but they flew away... hahaha...

Transformers and Shopping

2007-07-29T15:45:00.000+08:00

26th July 2007 (Thursday)

today, Jonathan and I, the two most outdated people in the world went to cure our deprivation by watching TRANSFORMERS in KLCC...

it turned out really REALLY GOOD...

at first, i thought that Transformers may be a little lame considering its about a bunch of alien robots who can transform into cars... but it turned out awesome... hee hee...

it was really cool.. the graphics and stuff... it had a nice plot and everything.. the only thing was that Megatron had died a little too fast.. i thought that it would have abit more action or drama before he actually dies....

after the movie, we went to makan at the FoodCourt again.. (Jon was being a dear and teman-ed me makan breakfast before the movie and THANKYOU for the movie ticket ya!! ^^ )

we headed to Kinokuniya Book Store after that.. after much debate, i bought a book called Voices by Ursula LeGuin.

after that, i headed over to MidValley to meet with ChoyLing for dinner. she was working there part time, as a survey officer with her boyfriend.. i felt like such a lamp post there.... >.<>

i reached MidValley about an hour earlier and decided to go shopping...

my shopping spree started the moment i entered Zara... it was awesome.. i had probally turned the shop upside down looking for clothes.. and in the end.. i bought..

then at MNG..

at GUESS... the bags were at 40% discount.. so i got this one..

finally.. at Vinci, i was already feeling bad after exiting Guess... so i just got this...

all together i think i spent about RM400++... c=

i bought all these in one hour... hahahaha.... father's should never give their daughter's credit cards... super dangerous..... lolz

Love holds no boundaries..

2007-07-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

i got bored again.. so.. yeah.. i drew this.. with reference to some girly diary.. c=

its symbolic...

the picture is not very clear though.. but you can click on it to see a larger one..
hee hee..

lets see who can guess this right... hee hee... c=

The Potter Talk

2007-07-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

* DO contain spoilers.. *

The Final Harry Potter book!!!!!!!

i have waited and waited for sooo long.. and finally it's out!!!

i got it on Sat.. ( 21st July 07 ) and finished it on that day itself.. c=

it was magical...

the official price for the normal book is RM 109.90... and some idiots like Tesco and Carrefour are selling it for RM 69.90 only.....

anyways..
i only got a free T-Shirt from pre-booking HP7 from POPULAR BOOK STORE..

i wannnn Ben's OWL!!!!
my shirt from Popular is soooo huge.. i can only drown in it !!!

[ Shirt too large for photo to be taken]

HEDWIGGGGG.....!!!!!!

SNIFF!!!

among everyone that died... Hedwig's was the most sudden... she didn't even get to hoot ! she only got to sulk at Harry for cooping her up in her cage for so long.. she had been with Harry since his first wand.... sniff....

maybe JK Rowling thinks that Hedwig too insignificant in the final book and so.. might as well just kill her off? poor poor Hedwig...

THE TWINS!

at first i thought that George losing an ear was bad enough.. but .. but when she had decided to seperate the twins... by killing Fred... that was so cruel..... i was soo sad... how can she seperate the twins!!!! what would become of Weasley's Wheezes?? it wouldn't be the same anymore without Fred....

but Mrs Weasley was way cool in the ending when she was dueling with Belatrix Lestrange.. she called her BITCH ! WHOA!!! never knew she had it in her!!

HERMIONE!
and poor Hermione.. she's risking everything... to help Harry fight Voldemort.. including her parents.... she was willing to modify her parents memory into thinking that their biggest life long dream is to move to Australia and that they never had a daughter... she did this to protect them.... so sweet and so sad....

LUPIN AND TONKS
!! Lupin and Tonks died together.... that's so sad too... now Teddy Remus Lupin's an orphan...

MAD-EYE MOODY
( i don't really care much about Tonks.. ) oh yea.. Mad-Eye Moody.. who would have thought that he was going to die so soon....

OH MY GOSH! I FEEL SO SAD FOR SNAPE!!!

Snape loved Lily till the day he died...

so kesian... sniff sniff... he loved Lily so much.... ever sine they were kids.. he was peaking and spying at Lily from behind a bush.. till Lily got married... and when he was about to die, he asked Harry to look at him.. so that he could see his eyes.. Lily's eyes...

DRACO MALFOY
oh.. i also didn't like that Draco Malfoy played such a mini role in this book... i thought that he would have played a bigger role.. but he had been reduced to nothing but a coward, always hiding behind his mother's shadow....

sniff ... i like Draco.. and its not because of Tom Felton!

( but he is seriously cute though... ^^)

THE HOUSE ELVES

But i really liked Kreacher for turning over a whole tree... he/ it was so sweet in the end.. leading the army of House Elves against Voldemort... but i kinda hoped that Dobby would be there too.. together.. the 2 HouseElves happily as friends when Kreacher apologizes to Dobby, and Dobby giving the other a pat on the back.. WHHY MUST DOBBBYY DDIIIEEE????? i liked Dobby... he was so sweet.. Dobby's the real Hero! he saved them all.... Harry should have known better than to speak Voldemort's name.. Ron told him that it was taboo!! HE CONTRIBUTED.. MORE LIKE CAUSED DOBBY'S DEATH !!

WHAT I DIDNT LIKE:

i didn't like the 19 years later part... its like she didn't care anymore...i can't explain... but the ending sucked...the names of the kids were.. so... predictable.. and the name ALBUS SEVERUS POTTER... sucks! >.<

i also didn't really like the part where they supposedly stayed at Grimmauld Place, i think.. for months... and nothing happened... it was such a waste of time... and i would think that Voldemort would keep his Horcruxes in better places which are much harder to get to .. like the cave, for example.....

Overall, i liked the book except for the ending... its still better than the 5th book to me though.. hahaha... c=
now, im tempted to re-read fom the first book onwards again....

i remember the times when we used to bring Harry Potter to school and tried to read it while the teachers were not looking... I remember Miss Doh scolding me for reading Harry Potter in class when i should be concentrating on my SPM... hahahahahaha... ^^

The Harry Potter series has ended.. and it feels as if a part of my childhood has ended as well...

i kinda grew up with Harry.. i think that most of us did as well... c=

Of Goats Milk and Lamb Chop..

2007-07-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday.. i decided to be a little adventurous... and so, i drank goat's milk...

"mmmeeehhhhhhh" says the goat.

yes.. instead of our daily cow's milk.. i decided to betray my species (i still cannot forgive Jin Hang for giving me that horrible nickname that would follow me and haunt me forever as long as i am in the same school as sue ling... cause she likes spreading it around.. >.< ) to drink goat's milk...

i looked at the boiled milk and saw some tiny coagulated pieces of milk skin (sapi) as they call it in malay.. floating about on the surface of the milk... it looked rather disgusting.. like white vommit...

[ PICTURE REMOVED BECAUSE TOO DISGUSTING]

i took a sniff and it somehow smelled to me like...

lamp chops!!!

the goats milk smelled like lamb chops for some weird, unknown reason...
i took a sip.. and forced those tiny bits down my throat as well.... it tasted alright.. it wasn't that bad... but there was a hint of salty taste in the milk.. SALTY MILK DOES NOT TASTE GOOD..

the after taste of lamb chops lingred in my mouth for ages before i washed it away with some lemon tea..

it was like drinking lamb chop...

hmm.... lamb-chop-in-a-bottle... it's sure to be a big hit!

hahahahahahahahaha!

SOOO SIEN.... ^^

2007-07-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

sooooo sien during the holidays.. so i decided to draw something...

i saw the flowers sitting in a corner of my room collecting dust and decided to just sketch a picture of it... i was talking to clinton on the phone when i drew it...
hahaha... c=

its the one he gave me during our first date which seemed like ages ago... though now the flowers are kinda dry and shrivelled up... and i think that it stinks a little too!! lolz...

after drawing it.. i decided to mail it to him in Miri since he sends letters back and everything...
( he is soooo sweet...) so.. i hope that he'll like it ...

Before: as fresh as can be.. and guess wat.. it smelllsss liiikkeee rrrooosseeesss!!!!!!!!!!!!

Died: has turned... black.... and it stinks.......

oh well...

Funeral: ........................................

REALLY BAD LUCK LORRR....

2007-07-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

WAH!!!!

CRAPPY SHEET WEIII!!!

my first time at Maisons.... everything started out kinda nice... the atmosphere was good except for the choking smoke... which was ofcourse unavoidable and a necessity in such places... the music was cool.. and there were alot of ppl... i even met my college friends outside.. and i thought that today would be really nice and indeed would be very fun...

however.. slowly.. things started to fall apart...

firstly.. poor Beverly's sandals/heels died even before we started dancing!!
so she had to live with dancing around in Ivan's socks.. while the dude himself had to wear his shoes without them...

then after that... we went dancing when the DJ came back... i think it was DJ Goldfish.. Lynn Nee said that he was really good... we danced alot.. it was so so hot.. we started sweating like anything... we were having a really great time... we even went up to dance at the podium..there were so so so many people.. till it was so difficult to move, and difficult to breathe...

after alot of sweating and dancing... we decided to go back up for a drink .. then i realised that my bag was not where it was supposed to be... Lynn had hid our handbags behind the cushion of the sofa... till it was completely out of sight before we went dancing.. but when we went back there.. i saw my shocking pink MNG bag peeking out from behind the emerald green cushion...
at first.. i thought that perhaps... maybe.. nothing had happened.. till i unzipped my bag and realised that... my phone was gone... the first thought in my head was...

" where the hell is my phone!!!?!?!?!?!?!? i can't believe that this is happening to me!!! where the hell is my freakin phone!! "

then i looked for sieu theng's phone that she had kept in my bag.. i searched frantically among the cosmetics in my bag and found her samsung...
then i quickly told Lynn that i had lost my phone... she got scared and checked her bag... her camera and sieu theng's other phone was not there...
we were damn worried and looked for our phones and camera...

suddenly.. i heard a loud crash and turned around... THEN !!

i saw this guy fall onto the wooden floor in front of the table.. and another dude kept bashing the victim's head with whatever he could get his hands on.. glasses, bottles.. his own fists... it was so scary.... it was the first time that i had witnessed something so real.. and so near.. right in front of my eyes....

the fights continued.. and i think i screamed along with some other girls.. then i hopped to the other sofa beside ours.. which was further away from the scene.. hoping that i would be a little safer... but when i turned my head to my left.. my eyes widened when i saw a guy bleeding horribly from a head injury.. then i thought that i wasn't that safe after all...

i can't really remember what happened next .. but i remember hearing Poh Juan's voice calling us to go down the stairs and to quickly get out of the place... i guess my legs seemed to understand him.. and obeyed his command..

i began to run towards the stairs and climb down when i heard clashing sounds infront, beside and behind me.. then i felt a throbbing pain on my hand...i looked down and my hand was swollen.. there was a purple lump.. i looked on the stairs.. i saw a glass... i looked up.. i saw a dude carrying a chair.. obviously going to throw it down at us.. ( us.. being those on the stairs)
then i remember imitating the girl in front of me who suddenly decided to squat and cover her head with her hands while screaming... and i did the same not knowing why i did that.. after that.. i saw that the stairs had been blocked by a chair.. i think someone threw it.. i can't really remember if i actually saw the chair land or what..
cause it was all so messy... so so messy...

but during the entire commotion.. all i could think about was my phone and getting down the stairs as soon as possible.. i could not care less about the throbbing pain on my hand which began to swell into the size of a mini purple ping pong ball to my ignorance.. or what if the glass had fallen onto my head instead.. or if i had gotten hit by the chair and somehow landed in the hospital..

i somehow managed to escape from the mess.. and was reunited with the others awhile later..
after resting awhile outside.. some of us decided to pop back into the club when the gangs were settling their "business" .. we traced our steps back to our table..

the second time inside... was very different from the previous.. i was excited, happy at first.. but this next visit.. came across.. grave... and.. i walked up those stairs and passed those ppl who puked, smoked or danced as if i was in a dream.. a nightmare.. in which i would wake up soon to find my happy pink sony ericsson Z610i smiling at me beside my bed... but... aihhhh...

i saw drops of dark red blood on the floor where the fight was held.. and looked desperately for our lost items which we all deep down knew that it would be impossible to reclaim...

we got so pissed and fed up we decided to go mamak instead.. sieu theng then wrote a long, and very emo sms and sent it to my phone.. hoping the thief would read it and at least returm Lynn Nee's camera memory card... no reply..... evil arse...

we talked till 3 something i think... and went back to Lynn Nee's house..
we played with Ice Cream (Lynn's dog)... until Lynn noticed that my hand had swelled up really badly..
so.. she boiled me an egg to rub against my ugly purple injury... it worked.. who would have guessed.. eggs are useful not only to provide protein and give us high cholestrol.. but it can flatten my swell as well...
we stayed up till her maid woke up.. till her sister's woke up and got ready for school... we bathed.. and slowly went to bed....

i left earlier that day when the rest were still sleeping... and i thought that at least i could blog about this horrible FRIDAY 13TH 2007.. but.. i couldn't cause.. my internet choose that happy day to die!!!!

so now.. i'm in starbucks many days later.. blogging about that horrible horrible day!!!

i got a new phone.. decided to pay for it myself.. same model.. SONY ERICSSON Z610i.. the blue one though...

the morale of the story : do not bring phone or wallet or camera to Clubbing..
do not trust your belongings with people you don't know..

TO WHOEVER WHO STOLE MY PHONE!!! MAY YOU BURN IN HELL AND BE EATEN ALIVE BY THOSE BUGS IN THE MUMMY RETURNS!!!

FREAKIN ARSE!!!!!

NOTE TO THE THIEF:
i feel so sorry for you thief.. so poor until you need to go steal girl's phone for cash isit??
poor poor man.. i feel so so sorry for you.... hope my donation to "charity" has helped you a little...

Book Review

2007-07-09T17:29:00.000+08:00

THE SHADOW OF THE WIND

by Carlos Ruiz Zafon

<-- the genius behind it all....

this story... had been written beautifully.. it is truly a masterpiece...

i would really like to thank Joshua for introducing this marvelous work to me.. when he told me that it was really good.. i didn't think that it would be this good.... its amazing...

i was absolutely in love with the language and the way Zafon had written it... everytime i read a chapter or two, it just seems to linger in my mind and i feel it within my heart, every word that had been carefully and cleverly chosen which carved out the entire portrait...

"Dawn was breaking, and a purple blade of light cut through the clouds, spraying its hue over the fronts of mansions and the stately homes that bordered Avenida del Tibidabo. A blue tram was crawling lazily uphill in the mist."

" The city is like a sorceress, you know Daniel? It gets under your skin and steals your soul without knowing it..."

apart from that, it has an amazing plot.. it is never dull.. it just keeps you guessing and the dramatic twists just leaves you wanting to go on reading..even when your eyes are feeling dry and awfully heavy thanks to the sandman who had been pouring endless sand into your eyes, hoping that you'll fall into his horrible trap to make you sleep, despite how tempting and how soft and comfy your bed is... you'll go on reading.. ^^ cause most likely, youre gonna stick tooth picks or match sticks in your eyes to keep them from closing... just like this poor guy here....

it has been hours since i put the book down and back into the cupboard but i am still caught up and am lost within the story as if i was one of the characters in the book.. living in the dangerous and twisted world created by the author... i think i'm still a little disturbed by it.. hahahahaha

anyway, i don't wanna give out any spoilers... so... for those who love to read.. this is a MUST READ !!!

^^ so.. GO READ!!! and get disturbed too !!!

wrong... so wrong...

2007-07-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

i looked at my half finished circle-a-word puzzle which had quickly become my new companion during the dull moments of my holiday and shoved it aside with a miserable sigh when my mother's ringing voice called to me from the other side of my room door asking me for one last time if i would follow her to her friend's daughter's baby shower.

with nothing better to do i agreed..

it was also partly because i was curious to witness the celebration of the one-month-old infant whose parents were around my age.. yes.. the mother of the child is 20 while the dad on the other hand is only 19.. or 18 ++ if his birthday had not passed yet..

come to think of it, perhaps another reason that i had decided to go was to scare myself to prevent me from engaging in any activity that would cause me to walk in those shoes that are currently stuck on their feet now.. and if that was my main reason.. it worked.. i don't want their shoes....

when i looked at the boy, barely a man, tall and lanky, his face still baring signs of a kid himself , cradling his own baby in his arms.. a shiver went down my spine.. it looked.. so .. wrong.. he is only 19 !! i couldn't imagine any of my friends being parents now.. it was all too weird.. i tried to shake away the vivid images of my imaginations which my brain had so happily conjured up but without avail. the topic stuck to my brain like a hungry leech.. unwilling to let go of the fat animal whose blood it happily feasts upon...

i couldn't imagine what life would be like if i somehow had a kid now.. my entire life would be ruined.. i would have to stop college or university to hide my gradually expanding belly due to the shame apart from having to face the dagger-like rumours or gossips that would be spreading quick like a disease during the cold bitter months..

in conclusion, call me old fashion but.. pre-marital sex now.... super risky.. so don't do it.. hahahaha....

intro ^^

2007-07-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

blogging...

hrmm.. i have always wanted to start a blog.. but then after realising that my life consists of a monotonous ritual of waking up, going to school, coming home, finishing homework, watching tv or going online... i decided to give up..

years later, (now) though my life still does not consist of much, or any.. action packed events filled with goblins and magic wands.. i finally started to have my own life..

since college, i have been granted much more freedom.. having my own car and everything.. is just really great.. meeting new friends and everything...
i would say that i grew up quite a bit.. meeting different people had opened my eyes, and given me a taste of how the world really is... a rather cruel place where people though denying it, are still prejudiced towards those who are.. different, not queer.. just different.. from the rest of us.. i admit that i too.. that i have contributed to some.. less.. proud-of-moments.. and i am sorry..

anyway, back to blogging...

technically.. isn't blogging kinda like a diary ?.. only online where the whole world can read about your thoughts and desires.. but aren't diaries supposed to be a secret where only you and you alone are accessible to it? unless of course your mother or annoying sibling decides to "accidentally" stumble across it... and....

oh well... i am a bit old fashioned and i still keep a diary..the book kind...
this blog.. is just an experimental thing to fill up my thousands of seconds that if not, would be wasted by me in front of the television while being brainwashed into loony-ville by a talking yellow sponge and his mentally challenged pink starfish of a friend..

^^

usually when you write and essay or anything.. the teacher always asks you to write a conclusion.. so that it would be more presentable or something like that..
i however, can't seem to think of any conclusion for this post..
so..

~the end~