wrong... so wrong...

i looked at my half finished circle-a-word puzzle which had quickly become my new companion during the dull moments of my holiday and shoved it aside with a miserable sigh when my mother's ringing voice called to me from the other side of my room door asking me for one last time if i would follow her to her friend's daughter's baby shower.

with nothing better to do i agreed..

it was also partly because i was curious to witness the celebration of the one-month-old infant whose parents were around my age.. yes.. the mother of the child is 20 while the dad on the other hand is only 19.. or 18 ++ if his birthday had not passed yet..

come to think of it, perhaps another reason that i had decided to go was to scare myself to prevent me from engaging in any activity that would cause me to walk in those shoes that are currently stuck on their feet now.. and if that was my main reason.. it worked.. i don't want their shoes....

when i looked at the boy, barely a man, tall and lanky, his face still baring signs of a kid himself , cradling his own baby in his arms.. a shiver went down my spine.. it looked.. so .. wrong.. he is only 19 !! i couldn't imagine any of my friends being parents now.. it was all too weird.. i tried to shake away the vivid images of my imaginations which my brain had so happily conjured up but without avail. the topic stuck to my brain like a hungry leech.. unwilling to let go of the fat animal whose blood it happily feasts upon...

i couldn't imagine what life would be like if i somehow had a kid now.. my entire life would be ruined.. i would have to stop college or university to hide my gradually expanding belly due to the shame apart from having to face the dagger-like rumours or gossips that would be spreading quick like a disease during the cold bitter months..

in conclusion, call me old fashion but.. pre-marital sex now.... super risky.. so don't do it.. hahahaha....